Jerk

I have said it. I told her what was in my mind. then she cried and asked me why..........I thought everything would work out the way that we wanted, but no. same problems came up again. It is my fault. My fucking fault. If i had never taken the chance you gave me...everything would be so simple. The love we have in our relationship is no longer the "love-love" but the family-love. i guess. i mean. i still care for you..but its just different...i think it is better for both of us to end it earlier. i know that you have noticed the problems again. i cannot lie. i seriously hate myself right now. for being a jerk. i have never ever. done that to anyone before. i hate myself so much right nowhaiuahaiw. but i really think that is the best for us. if our love is not that type of love, then why even...try? you tried. i tried. but i just couldn't control myself. this is not what i want. i thought i can do it but i cant. fuck. it is just not working out. when i try to remember all the memories we have had...yes, i do miss all the good or bad times we had in the past. my .heart would feel like. its goin to come off or sumthing. But i just cant find that type of feelings in our relationship anymore. im so sorry. i know ima jerk. im not a good bf. i do not know how to do all these relationships thingy properly. im sorry.

Taco Tuesday

Woke up at like 7am for philosophy. then came home and sleep-_- ha!
was suppose to eat lunch with mah boss today but didn't. She was stuck in traffic or sumthing o_o then uh woke up at like 2:30pm ate lunch and blah. didn't really do anything..finished homework but still have to study for japanese quiz hmm~
oooh yes. the topic, taco tuesday.-_- went to rubio's to get some tacos for dinner...yea and that ends my post of today..-- lamo. and oh yes. beckham i still admire you. get well soon!

World Cup? No more.

Oh my, beckham won't be in the world cup this summer...his achilles just snapped during a match. he will be going to finland for a surgery. god damn...sooo saddd )=
first world cup without david beckham???!!!-_- sigh. i remember watching 2002, 2006 world cup...he played well. yep. is it the end of his career? )= i hope not..but his international career is over. "/ yeeeah........its over.

So sad

Went to school today early in the morning..and i was so damn tired...=_=
I was supposed to go work for this person today but she called and said she could go
yeeeeAH! i was soo happy XD waha. then i went to sleep...errr not much to say bout me today.

Oh. so sad so sad... Cute austin's daddy past away...yesterday..)= ahhhh><
cuz of cancer i believe. and now he is sick! damn...bad stuff happen all at once..?
i feel really sorry for him..hope he will get better and hes got to STAY STRONG!! >< You can do it austin!

What's up with all the people getting cancer?
Someone needs to find a way to cure it..sigh.

Busy week

School Monday - Thursday.
Work Tuesday Wednesday Saturday Sunday.
Sounds busy eh

Haha I wonder what does she do when shes not at work/school/online..o_o
Movies? Tv? idk aha
8 more days til her birthday
She spent it with me last year..oh well.
Gonna turn 19 soon..hmm happy early bday juu

Not with me

Oh damn, the best three nights of your life were not with me, but with another guy.
Oh damn, I'm a failure.

SPRING

hello spring semester! Okay soooo i get kinda tired on monday and wednesday just because i have to wake up at like...5 sumthing to get to class before 6:15...hmm dropped english cuz the teacher is kinda...blah. = = but walked in for BUSA7 accounting! hahaaa 5 units ! :D hmm monday PSYC, A LONG BREAK, JAP1 Tuesday PHILO Wednesday PSYC, BUSA7, JAP Thursday PHILO. yepp thats my schedule haha! pretty chill? i think? hmmm~ i think ill actually learn stuff in busa7 too! the teacher seems nice:D hehehee
Other than the classes that im taking..i have work too! started last week. every monday and wednesday. everyone seems nice to me especially the manager hahaa. even tho she kinda treats me like a little boy wahaha. all these things keep me busy..yep..tho i think about her sometimes..when im not doing any of the things that are listed above. "/