The Distance

The distance from point A to point J is getting longer and longer
I know I should not be sad, or I probably don't even have to reason to be.
Since...we no longer bonded together.
"Oh, she is just a friend." I said to my aunt, and that is when we were still together.
but now, all i want to say is "This is Joanne, and she is my girlfriend."
too late. sucka!

we just talked on the phone a moment ago. *About classes of course. since there would not be any other topic...

She seemed like she wanted to hang up and stop talking to me asap.
Maybe it is just me, but i felt pretty bad.
Can our conversation be longer? Like we can talk about other stuff too you know?..
I guess i have no reason to complain because she is not mine anymore.
She seems like she does not care anymore.
I mean...she won't call just because she is bored or wants someone to talk to.

so yea. too late now.
alex.

i always go on her tumblr and blog, just to see how she is doing.
she always post things on her tumblr and i really thought that those were her feelings...
but i guess i am probably wrong..
none of the stuff applies to me..
maybe someone else? idk, and i do not want to find out.

i should just stop imagining stuff that will never happen again.
i tried.
& am still trying...
but this is really hard for me.